Time to recover

 I'm a 90s kid. We have been through between the two peak era. The era of 2000s of millennials and the start of Gen Z era. The difference between of these two? The millennials owns technology while the gen z owns the internet era.

Compare to the millennials era, the gen z era feels everything so rushed. Sometime you cant believe how many years has passed while you are living in the internet era. What I realized about the gen z is their life start to centered about the global view. Can you imagine the whole people on earth looking at one same thing perspective? The global standard become the main point of gen Z. And they growing up so fast and at the same time everyone want to become the same things. 

I do feel tired chasing the fear of missing out. I used to be the mainstream, I used to be global people, I used to show of everything on the internet, and I used to consume everything on the internet until it shaped your whole personality. I used to be a hustle woman and chasing the success that you can claimed your victory because everyone want to be that one.

Until I realized that human body has limit, coffee is not the endless energy drink, fast food is not a real food, money will never enough, shopping is unending desire of human, everyone want to make money as much as they can.

I'm so tired of this kind of life.

So, I'm retired from this way of life at my 30s. I'm feeling that I've experienced enough of this life. I actually chased everything I want in my 20s. I almost completely checked everything out of my bucket list. Actually I checked more. I gain a lot of experience but at the same time, I failed  a lot too. I have so my things I proud of but at the same time I always questioned myself, " Is it worth it?"

After all, human are always greed. It never enough. I questioned myself, what I want more? But, it always about wanting more and more while I failed to appreciate the things I already have. It actually more than enough but you wanting more to be like everybody current standard.

So, I know I need to stop. Stop everything what I'm doing, so I can appreciate things that I used to pray to have now. I always feel rage, to always chasing dreams so I could be the standard of the society. But, everything of me is tired too.

So, I'm taking a break so myself can recover. I don't want to lose my soul for the future that I couldn't predict yet. Myself need me the most.

So, this is the break from my research, experiments, theory, philosophy, novels and life story.

Hope everyone could take a break from this too fast current world.

Sayonara, bye2.

Time for slow and living life. Sip the tea and talk to the tree. Touch the grass and feel the wind. Let the universe connect to you before you disconnected yourself from this world.