The world is ending

 It is sad to see that the world is ending too soon. Now the people doing evils on live while being watched by the whole world and feel proud to it. The soldiers post the picture the people they killed and no one stop famine, When it is wrong to see people being starved and ignore it. Food is for everyone, even to your enemies. But, when the food itself become a weapon, this is the downfall to the world itself.

This world is owned by the devils. That's the truth and evils got their infinity of greed will bring downfall to everything. It is so sad to see so many are blind these day even their eyes can see.

"We live in an era in which there is too much information but not enough knowledge, and even less wisdom. This excess of information makes us arrogant and then it makes us numb. We must change this ratio and focus more on knowledge and wisdom".

This morning I came across a word that made me stop. Stop serving the noisy world. Stop… to listen with the heart. RESET. In the modern world, the word “reset” has been raised as the main narrative by great powers. Terms like “The Great Reset” popularized by the World Economic Forum (WEF), for example, carry the idea: The world is broken. So we need to reset everything — economy, education, social, health system — to be “better”. But... Reset how? On what basis? And by whom? If this reset is not based on revelation, If this reset does not return humans to nature, If this reset only makes humans slaves to a system without a soul... That is not a reset. That is misguidance. Our Reset: Return to Self A reset that does not come from the meeting rooms of the world's elite. But from revelations sent down from nature. Our reset is not just erasing, but: Clarifying. Revitalizing. Fertilizing. Our reset begins when: The mind is clear again, Nature is understood again, And the world is put back in its place: not a goal, not a tool. The real reset does not begin in parliament or a global conference. The real reset begins when a young woman, in silence, wakes up to understand her soul that is damaged in today's system. When self-awareness gives birth to the awareness When personal understanding gives birth to a movement for change. When a recovered soul is able to develop Women today — Are corrupted, the generation is destroyed. When we realize, the people will rise. This reset starts with us. From ordinary ladies, who begin to feel: “This system does not suit my nature.” From the girls of Gen Z who wake up with the question: “What exactly am I looking for in life?” This reset does not need to wait for a big certificate. All you need is understanding. All you need is the courage to convey. It is a call to return to the original. Nature is the map. INDEPENDENT SOUL → UNDERSTANDING NATURE And this is not just a theory. This is the formula for the revival of civilization

Everyone losing their morality now

 To keep your morality. You need to be HUMAN. A man with a feeling of other human.

But with greed and maintaining normalcy, of course you will lose it. What is the mainstream. Especially in this current world.

We all have hope for the 21st century. Only to come with destruction by the advanced technology. We all are losing ourself.

So is it the peak destruction of the world? Not to make human have greater life with driven era?

Until I realized behind all the technologies are the workers who is overworked and not having a normal life. After all, human need a basic need with a simple life.

They thought the mainstream is to support evils because evils are strong with power? They forgot this evils against nature hence against God themself. 

We all are human, remember that. Human have limit, fragile and death. So, if human lose their morality themselves so they should not be called human anymore maybe they evolved to evils? Because satan already got their name.

Remember not to follow satanism. It live in your desire, greed and selfishness. Even the pyramid are empty now.

Choose morality than everything else.

We all are a survivor and fighter

Everyone is survived at something. To survive, is we need to fight. To fight in a world of survival.

We don't know what each of us, human in this world is surviving something, may it be in sickness, war, famine, financial, poor or rich, beauty or ugly, love or hate. But, as a human, we do survive. This life is tough. We need to breathe, walk and feeling.

What's matter is how we do it. Not everything will come with a success. We will fail a lot. We will not knowing what is going on. Even there is thousand of human before us doing the same. Even we can learn from the people of the past. But it is how we choose to try to do it and never give up. To survive is we have to do thousand of errors.

Only with that, we know what precision we want and we start to aim.

That's how we do it.

Good luck to everyone who trying to survive this world especially when you are on your own.

That's painful and even hard to watch as a human but if you don't try to survive, you wont get to  live.

It's not about we get what we want in this life anymore but it's all about how we can accept when fate of ourself came and hit us.

Time to recover

 I'm a 90s kid. We have been through between the two peak era. The era of 2000s of millennials and the start of Gen Z era. The difference between of these two? The millennials owns technology while the gen z owns the internet era.

Compare to the millennials era, the gen z era feels everything so rushed. Sometime you cant believe how many years has passed while you are living in the internet era. What I realized about the gen z is their life start to centered about the global view. Can you imagine the whole people on earth looking at one same thing perspective? The global standard become the main point of gen Z. And they growing up so fast and at the same time everyone want to become the same things. 

I do feel tired chasing the fear of missing out. I used to be the mainstream, I used to be global people, I used to show of everything on the internet, and I used to consume everything on the internet until it shaped your whole personality. I used to be a hustle woman and chasing the success that you can claimed your victory because everyone want to be that one.

Until I realized that human body has limit, coffee is not the endless energy drink, fast food is not a real food, money will never enough, shopping is unending desire of human, everyone want to make money as much as they can.

I'm so tired of this kind of life.

So, I'm retired from this way of life at my 30s. I'm feeling that I've experienced enough of this life. I actually chased everything I want in my 20s. I almost completely checked everything out of my bucket list. Actually I checked more. I gain a lot of experience but at the same time, I failed  a lot too. I have so my things I proud of but at the same time I always questioned myself, " Is it worth it?"

After all, human are always greed. It never enough. I questioned myself, what I want more? But, it always about wanting more and more while I failed to appreciate the things I already have. It actually more than enough but you wanting more to be like everybody current standard.

So, I know I need to stop. Stop everything what I'm doing, so I can appreciate things that I used to pray to have now. I always feel rage, to always chasing dreams so I could be the standard of the society. But, everything of me is tired too.

So, I'm taking a break so myself can recover. I don't want to lose my soul for the future that I couldn't predict yet. Myself need me the most.

So, this is the break from my research, experiments, theory, philosophy, novels and life story.

Hope everyone could take a break from this too fast current world.

Sayonara, bye2.

Time for slow and living life. Sip the tea and talk to the tree. Touch the grass and feel the wind. Let the universe connect to you before you disconnected yourself from this world.

2024 is a scary year

 The is the first year of inflation.

So many bad news unfold at the end of 2024, so many unforeseen events happened in 2024, so many damages, so many declined, so many heartbreak. But for sure, many of us start to realize that this year is to save up, being careful of our spending and the end of show off or display the lavish life on our social media. Despite that, everybody is busy making money here and there. Everything is expensive mostly the healthy food like the fruits, vegetable and organics. While the corporations and capitalist are encouraging us to consume a lot of toxic in plastics of processed food that inhibit our brain productivity. We started to differentiate of desire versus necessity of things in our life.

But,

Didn't we realize this started to unfold until we realize that to live this world need a lot of money. To live as a human in the human made system need a lot of requirement that need money to survive in a daily basis. To have water is to pay the sewage system, to have lights is to pay the electricity. This peak of 21st century is to realize we are the human that consume a lot of things to live.

We have too many shoes, too many lights, consume too many electricity, drink a lot types of water, depend on sugars, having too much information, and the urge of competing each other with the people of internet to show our achievement.

The year of 2000s feels like yesterday when we are excited with the phones and internet. Then the social media that connect all of us. Suddenly the world become too fast, we consume too much, we know too much, then all of us started to have the same goals like everyone on the internet.

We used to see being entrepreneur is everything and dream to everybody, until the truth come out, the hardship, the economy and the financial make us realize that, that "dream" is not for everybody.

We used to proud of the 'hustle' culture until we started to neglect our basic life and the sickness from it finally come together. 

Is it me alone, financial issue became a main topic of 2024 problems?

Yes, it doesn't look that 'obvious' yet but we need to started be wise with our spending and consumerism because the world right now is not going to be peaceful yet.

Emotion autistic

    1 in 5 autistic people have alexithymia. People who have alexithymia may have trouble identifying, understanding and describing emotions. They may also struggle to show or feel emotions that are seen as socially appropriate, such as happiness on a joyous occasion.

    Autistic children often struggle with emotional regulation. Big emotions in autism can be related to problems with sensory integration, communication deficits, and difficulty understanding social cues—and they can be hard to regulate and express appropriately. Emotional outbursts can be hard for everyone involved.

    Autistic people may act in a different way to other people. They may find it hard to understand how other people think or feel. find things like bright lights or loud noises overwhelming, stressful or uncomfortable. get anxious or upset about unfamiliar situations and social events. They take longer to understand information and common sense.

    They tend to process emotions more intensely and may have difficulty expressing them in ways that are deemed socially acceptable. For example, an autistic girl may have a blank facial expression, leading others to believe she is cold or uncaring when she is actually experiencing intense emotions.

    "Just because I struggle to put how I feel into words it doesn't mean I don't feel things. In fact, the worse I feel, the more I struggle and often default to, 'I'm fine'."

    Autistic people may lack the ability to recognize and label emotions, and they may have difficulty responding to social cues. This can vary from individual to individual. Cognitive empathy can be taught, so it is possible for autistic people to learn empathetic behavior. Other therapies may improve emotional empathy.

    For some autistic adults, emotions do not show, either on their face, in their body or in their tone of voice. The fact that autistic people experience the full range of human emotions, including love, is indisputable. Many autistic people are observant and have excellent attention to detail of understand emotion.

    Because of their difficulty in regulating their emotions, they are more likely to move to an extreme emotional state, such as a meltdown, at times. There can also be the social pressures of responding differently in terms of emotions compared with others sharing the same experience.

    Someone with autism may not show any signs of grief at a funeral. Similarly, they might say they are feeling calm when they are showing physical signs of agitation and alertness. To other people, this might appear confusing and untrue. Autistic people may act in a different way to other people. Normal people will find it hard to understand how this autistic people think or feel. Because this people take longer to understand basic information and impression. 

Metropolis

 You see all this picture? 
How you see it?

In the past, I was proud of the city I'm living in. I am proud of the very fast technology. I am proud of the many amenities in the city. I always dreamed of living in a developed and busy city. I like to do various interesting things that are only available in cities. I am generation Z so my life must be in the city.  Many new buildings coming and more interesting shops to visit.

However, after ten years of exhausting life and work in the city, I feel very tired. Every day we chasing life. we start life with coffee. our food is fast food because I feel that, time is very fast while the works never ends so fast food is the savior of our lives.

However my health begins to decline. I feel tired and stressed easily. I'm burnt out. my brain is messed up. I cry easily. 

I notice the people around me. everyday we chased  the train to our  places. we ate quickly at the restaurant because there were many places to go. We shop every day but there are more and more items we want to buy. we eat dessert every day to feel happy but that happiness is only temporary. we follow the latest fashion, so every day I just want to buy new clothes, while my closet is already full of clothes and things. 

Until I got really sick. i decided to go back home. My home is in countryside. Its not in the big cities. My favourite shops and things are not available at my parents home. But, the food are fresh. The home cooked meals are so warm. It refresh my soul. I love the sound of nature at home because the city is too noisy that I need a white noise to calm me down.

Then, I realize the life that I used to love is the one that make me sick and easily overwhelmed. There always so many things to do and need to have that I feel sucked up by this temporary life. I quit everything and back to basic.

We need life that not taking our soul. We need to be alive with our soul. Don't sell your soul to anything, Its okay to be in comfort zone because sometime when you chasing what everyone is doing, you might losing everything.

So, metropolis or megapolis is not the life we need. What we need is the warm home cooked foods, the sounds of nature, the basic and average life, the happy family and our soul living in our body.