2024 is a scary year

 The is the first year of inflation.

So many bad news unfold at the end of 2024, so many unforeseen events happened in 2024, so many damages, so many declined, so many heartbreak. But for sure, many of us start to realize that this year is to save up, being careful of our spending and the end of show off or display the lavish life on our social media. Despite that, everybody is busy making money here and there. Everything is expensive mostly the healthy food like the fruits, vegetable and organics. While the corporations and capitalist are encouraging us to consume a lot of toxic in plastics of processed food that inhibit our brain productivity. We started to differentiate of desire versus necessity of things in our life.

But,

Didn't we realize this started to unfold until we realize that to live this world need a lot of money. To live as a human in the human made system need a lot of requirement that need money to survive in a daily basis. To have water is to pay the sewage system, to have lights is to pay the electricity. This peak of 21st century is to realize we are the human that consume a lot of things to live.

We have too many shoes, too many lights, consume too many electricity, drink a lot types of water, depend on sugars, having too much information, and the urge of competing each other with the people of internet to show our achievement.

The year of 2000s feels like yesterday when we are excited with the phones and internet. Then the social media that connect all of us. Suddenly the world become too fast, we consume too much, we know too much, then all of us started to have the same goals like everyone on the internet.

We used to see being entrepreneur is everything and dream to everybody, until the truth come out, the hardship, the economy and the financial make us realize that, that "dream" is not for everybody.

We used to proud of the 'hustle' culture until we started to neglect our basic life and the sickness from it finally come together. 

Is it me alone, financial issue became a main topic of 2024 problems?

Yes, it doesn't look that 'obvious' yet but we need to started be wise with our spending and consumerism because the world right now is not going to be peaceful yet.

Emotion autistic

    1 in 5 autistic people have alexithymia. People who have alexithymia may have trouble identifying, understanding and describing emotions. They may also struggle to show or feel emotions that are seen as socially appropriate, such as happiness on a joyous occasion.

    Autistic children often struggle with emotional regulation. Big emotions in autism can be related to problems with sensory integration, communication deficits, and difficulty understanding social cues—and they can be hard to regulate and express appropriately. Emotional outbursts can be hard for everyone involved.

    Autistic people may act in a different way to other people. They may find it hard to understand how other people think or feel. find things like bright lights or loud noises overwhelming, stressful or uncomfortable. get anxious or upset about unfamiliar situations and social events. They take longer to understand information and common sense.

    They tend to process emotions more intensely and may have difficulty expressing them in ways that are deemed socially acceptable. For example, an autistic girl may have a blank facial expression, leading others to believe she is cold or uncaring when she is actually experiencing intense emotions.

    "Just because I struggle to put how I feel into words it doesn't mean I don't feel things. In fact, the worse I feel, the more I struggle and often default to, 'I'm fine'."

    Autistic people may lack the ability to recognize and label emotions, and they may have difficulty responding to social cues. This can vary from individual to individual. Cognitive empathy can be taught, so it is possible for autistic people to learn empathetic behavior. Other therapies may improve emotional empathy.

    For some autistic adults, emotions do not show, either on their face, in their body or in their tone of voice. The fact that autistic people experience the full range of human emotions, including love, is indisputable. Many autistic people are observant and have excellent attention to detail of understand emotion.

    Because of their difficulty in regulating their emotions, they are more likely to move to an extreme emotional state, such as a meltdown, at times. There can also be the social pressures of responding differently in terms of emotions compared with others sharing the same experience.

    Someone with autism may not show any signs of grief at a funeral. Similarly, they might say they are feeling calm when they are showing physical signs of agitation and alertness. To other people, this might appear confusing and untrue. Autistic people may act in a different way to other people. Normal people will find it hard to understand how this autistic people think or feel. Because this people take longer to understand basic information and impression. 

Metropolis

 You see all this picture? 
How you see it?

In the past, I was proud of the city I'm living in. I am proud of the very fast technology. I am proud of the many amenities in the city. I always dreamed of living in a developed and busy city. I like to do various interesting things that are only available in cities. I am generation Z so my life must be in the city.  Many new buildings coming and more interesting shops to visit.

However, after ten years of exhausting life and work in the city, I feel very tired. Every day we chasing life. we start life with coffee. our food is fast food because I feel that, time is very fast while the works never ends so fast food is the savior of our lives.

However my health begins to decline. I feel tired and stressed easily. I'm burnt out. my brain is messed up. I cry easily. 

I notice the people around me. everyday we chased  the train to our  places. we ate quickly at the restaurant because there were many places to go. We shop every day but there are more and more items we want to buy. we eat dessert every day to feel happy but that happiness is only temporary. we follow the latest fashion, so every day I just want to buy new clothes, while my closet is already full of clothes and things. 

Until I got really sick. i decided to go back home. My home is in countryside. Its not in the big cities. My favourite shops and things are not available at my parents home. But, the food are fresh. The home cooked meals are so warm. It refresh my soul. I love the sound of nature at home because the city is too noisy that I need a white noise to calm me down.

Then, I realize the life that I used to love is the one that make me sick and easily overwhelmed. There always so many things to do and need to have that I feel sucked up by this temporary life. I quit everything and back to basic.

We need life that not taking our soul. We need to be alive with our soul. Don't sell your soul to anything, Its okay to be in comfort zone because sometime when you chasing what everyone is doing, you might losing everything.

So, metropolis or megapolis is not the life we need. What we need is the warm home cooked foods, the sounds of nature, the basic and average life, the happy family and our soul living in our body.

Our world

 Hi and hello March 2024,

Time flies so fast,

That I find its hard not to lost our self in this busy world.

I want to ask everyone.

DO YOU FEEL YOUR EXISTENCE?

How you feel it? Can you explain to me?

Do you see the world itself exist first? Or do you see yourself exist first than the world?

How can you describe it?

Can you see this world more than the eyes see it?

Can you feel the existence more than your hands touch it?

Can you taste your existence more than your tongue can taste it?

Isn't it weird?

Is it all the five sense we have as a human is a proof we exist to this world?

What about our soul?

Do you feel your existence with your soul?

How to prove it exist?

If we die where our soul go?

Isn't we left everything we have here on earth when we die?

Then, what we have after then?

Our soul?

This world is misery, isn't it?

I believe that the highest knowledge we can achieve in this world is when we know why we exist in this world...

MYTHS AND MISCONCEPTION

HELLO, IT'S A NEW YEAR!

IT'S ALREADY 2024!

You know what? When I was a kid. I thought I will celebrate 2020 coming, with life full of technologies, a happy world and flying cars. 

BUT.

The world of 2020 is chaotic and messed up!

It is a world full of technologies. We life in a world that everything was made easier. Using only a single phone you can buy everything there, order car come at you, working, attend class and lecturers, no more tv, videocall, messaging people and the best one is connecting all people around the world.

The only basic need of life today is a phone and internet so you already good to have a life.

2020 started with a pandemic of a virus that spread into the worldwide.

2021 started with everyone need to inject shots of vaccine into their body.

2022 economy collapsed 

2023 Palestine-Israel war

2024 Bunker

The f*** is all this technologies and globalization just caused the whole world messed up. After everything happened, everybody become cautious. There are so many kind of people right now, the paranoids, the anti-vaccine, the preppers, the capitalist, the government and the people of the war.

But.

Looking at the situation right now, the misconception of ; If you have a bunker, you will be saved forever, IS WRONG!!

because if there is a war, the government has control of you. The man need to go into war. The government will order the evacuation. 

Now, I realized that this world full of chaos and misconception because in 2017-2019, we are taught to be a hustle women, entrepreneur and financial freedom. A content creator become the most demand job.

But.

Life like that make us in a 'rat-race' like you are chasing something and it's never enough. 24 hours a day is not enough because there is so much thing you can do to make money and become productive these days. Everyone wants to be the same. Especially the people they look up for, in the internet around the globes. There is a term of 'FOMO' used to describe people that don't want to look behind everyone in this globalization world.

But, 

The life itself is not fulfilling at all. It is easier to eat fast food, no more family dinner at the table, no more homemade food and no more conversation at the table. People choose to isolated themselves with their world in their phone. They converse by their phone. They connected to stranger people on the internet rather than the real people around them.

I realized it is easier to get sick nowadays. The hospital always full these days. So many new disease coming out. We need to mask to go outside. Everybody started to feel more distant. Until I realized that 'fast-food' make me lethargic, tired and no energy. I miss warm food. I miss my mom food. It is easier to have mental illness when you keep eating junk food too. 

Now, I realized how important cooked food at home.. How important real foods rather than that synthetic food. Now I realized that 'fast-food' is a junk food. It is full of chemicals and toxic ingredients that make people easily got sick nowadays. There is no more real antibodies anymore because food and medicine are made form cheap synthetic materials. Because of economy, it is easier to eat synthetic food packed in plastic by capitalist than the home grown food. It is easier to eat supplements rather than eating the right amount of protein, vegetables and fruits. 

Now, I realized a world of technologies is a world full of myths that we gonna be happy. Human become distant, the food lost it's indulgence and technologies only made to created more weapons to kill human rather than solving problems. These day there is no more rules to follow in war anymore, the machine used in the war make it easier to kill human. Genocide on weaker people is considered normal.

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